God. When am I going to ever catch a break? Just when I think things are going smoothly…
My desktop is down; I was lucky enough to have backed it up before it crashed on me. I’m just going to drop Winblows all together and install a fresh copy of Ubuntu on the sucker. Expect more delays than usual until I get everything fixed and tweaked right.
My desktop is out of order… big surprise, right?
Israel absolutely refuses to turn in targeting data to aid in locating unexploded cluster bombs throughout South Lebanon… Big surprise. [more information here]
I quote Young G a lot, and thought I’d give you guys a little taste of his music (thanks Moe!). You should definitely check out his MySpace, purchase an album.. Show your support!
Young G (aka Young Jihad) -- Poetic Justice Vol. 1 -- M.E. Stories
There’s a war outside
Innocent children dyin’
All we hear is sirens
Mama, please tell me we ain’t livin’ in Hell
Our fate shouldn’t be in the hands of another man, livin’ as well
I hear the force tear the wall
Cops tryin’ to make sure I fear the law
I only fear Allah
They call us terrorist
‘Cause we Arabic
I feel death
and I’m prepared for it
I didn’t bring AIDS on African soil
I didn’t invade Iraq and take their oil
But when your name’s Jihad
Nobody want to employ you
Friends wanna back stab me
And tell me what’s loyal
One of us slips
And they take our pictures
Kill our brothers
and rape our sisters
Shhh, they even clapped his mom
Now you know why her little boy out there, strapped with bombs
They never show you, this, on the news
All the stores around shut down
How we goin’ to get some food?
Somebody tell me what this all about,
And why there’s a bunch of tanks
Standin’ in front of my house?
You stressin’ out when the party start,
While some poor mother out there lookin for her kids body parts
We have no choice but to try and get by
Fix your own problems before you come and fix mine.
I ain’t a teacher, lawyer or doctor
I’m out in this cold world tryin’ to dodge impostors
Big airplanes and helicopters
It’s hard out here.. This can’t be proper
In the Middle East
The shots riddle the streets
With the little deceased
And little increase
Don’t worry though
We in God’s hands
Just believe everything goes as God plans.
I’m hopin’ things get better
‘Cause it’s hell outside
I’m walkin’ round here with broken wings
I’m supposed to deliver scriptures
That were whispered
And try and save
As much brothers and sisters
Birds in the air
So many towers fallin’
Devil sits there for hours callin’
And it don’t matter ’bout your race or birthplace
Miracles and signs happen
Everywhere on the Earth, wait.
Spoken:
It’s cold outside. It’s a cold world. People dyin’ everyday. Terror. You don’t know what to expect next. All we can do is pray for the best and prepare for the worst. I guess, the purpose of water defeats the purpose of thirst. So, I’m guessin’, all the bad that’s happenin’ to us now defeats the purpose of the good that’s goin’ to come. So keep your head up.
I absolutely love this song. In it, Lupe says “I ain’t tryin’ to profit off the Prophets, so this one here is for free.” Too bad there isn’t a real video; Or at least not one that I could find… You can download the song in mp3 format below.
Well, it seems that I’m never truly satisfied with what it is I dish out… Amidst my stumbling of the internets I found this rather simple yet pleasing theme… So, here we go again.
Updates: I have upgraded WP and changed the theme
Info: I’ll be customizing it as I go along..
Download: you can get it here
I’m so tired. I don’t even know where to begin exactly. Life has a tendency of weighing down on you after a short while.. I suppose it really depends more so on the situation than it does on time passed. But for me, as circumstances would have it, both time and situation are the burdens on my shoulders.
Ilhamdulilah (praise Allah / or thank God) for my family and their well being. Ilhamdulilah I awoke this morning and did not die in my sleep. Ilhamdulilah for the food in my fridge and the roof over my head. Ilhamdulilah for my job, money and car. Ilhamdulilah for all things I neglect to see. Ilhamdulilah.
I do what is necessary to live. I do what is required and expected of me. I have done all that I possibly could… And yet, I feel as though I have not done enough. Success is within my reach – and yet it is still out of my grasp. I do not understand what more there is to do, which I have not yet done.. In what way can I approach my father and explain to him that our current situation needs rectifying and by him?
My ads on CraigsList haven’t been very promising – though I have had an alarming number of responses from there. I suppose those who are seeking help or services through their medium are also in search of “freebies” or someone ridiculously cheap. With the price of fuel where it’s at, I offer my services at what I would hope to be a competitive rate; Yet people continue to lowball and short-change me..
The three people whom I have already serviced seemed to be fairly happy with both my services and pricing.. And yet, I have not completed more than those three jobs. I didn’t exactly expect spectacular results during this stage though. I’m still in my trial & error phase.. Which I don’t think I’ll be weaseling out of anytime soon.. I’ve put up a few more ads in various sections of CL and now all I can do is hope for the best. I suppose you just have to keep on doing what you’ve got to do, and everything will eventually turn out alright.. Just don’t quit trying!
Today I was asked a question to which I did not know the answer. The question? “What do you want to do?”
I have lived most of my life doing what was necessary to survive. I fulfilled my role as the eldest son since I was about 16. The last 6 years I have spent my time doing what was not only expected of me but what others had wanted me to do as well.
Since having been presented with this question, I sort of feel a tad bit lost. What do I want to do? I most certainly wish to accomplish my goals and succeed in this life; But I suppose I never put much thought into how I’m going to do so…
Well – I guess I didn’t exactly expect myself to figure this out today..
“If you spend all your time waiting for a chance, you just might miss it” – Unknown
Life hands us some unexpected twists and turns. I’ve always said that “There isn’t anything in this life that will come easy. Nothing is worth nothing. The best things are earned.”
Say you have a problem with your parents.. Say, they aren’t exactly aspiring with you.. You have a genius idea, and they shoot it down. What do you do? You persist and continue as if you have their full support. Do remember, this is your life. You’re the one who is going to have to live out the rest of your days. There isn’t anyone who is going to do your work for you. If you want support, you are first going to have to find it within yourself.
Say you’ve just wrecked your car. Say, you’ve been making payments on this car for the last year. Say you’ve only paid off $1,500 off of the premium and you’ve spent roughly $4,000 on interest.. Have you spent your money wisely? In your feeble attempts to pay off your car, you’ve actually been fattening some bankers pocket. In Islam, it is considered haram to pay or charge interest; And with good reason.
Interest is haram because 1) it takes no effort to earn through interest. 2) You’re being compensated for a service not served and 3) for some people who may never be able to shell out the total sum – it’s daylight robbery. Allah (swt) wants man to earn his living, the way we earn our deen. I do believe that I’ve said before the first condition of Islam is knowledge. So, to be a Muslim you’d have to seek knowledge. Through knowledge you earn your faith. It’s the same with working. Through work, you earn your wage.
I do believe that the most important thing we can earn in our lives is self-respect. It is so painfully obvious when someone does not respect themselves enough to respect those around them. It’s people like that who will never understand the concept of “Treat those the way you’d like to be treated.” As they treat themselves like piles of garbage. One simply need a little bit of religion and a lot of faith to find the self-respect they lack.
I suppose the whole point of this entry is that no matter how bad things may seem – you might only have yourself to blame. If after everything you’re still saying “Ilhamdullilah” or “Praise be to Allah” regardless of your situation, then you’ve accomplished much more than most human beings. Know always that your failures are spawned from your own insecurities – and your accomplishments from your own pride.
*image found at 6towns.com
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